Saturday, November 06, 2004
Hols
Apart from the trip, my holiday so far has been madness. Been going to school for the entire period from the morning about ten to about seven in the evening. I really think that its slacker during school term sia. I really don't know, everything is just so fucked up. With people fucking each other up and making other people's life miserable. To that fucker, you think that you can make our lives miserable? Think again, I'll do my utmost to make sure that you don't get your way. I'll not give in without a fight, so you better think twice before you try to be funny.
Shoot
Been about four months since I last did a true production job so when I went to help Elwin today, it was quite a deja vu. But must say that even though today was only a rehearsal and that I was hardly required to do anything. Guess tomorrow might have a little more to do. Really want to help out more in the shoot but can't cos of school. Need to be there quite often so can't really commit all my time even though I would loved to have committed myself to the shoot.
Para that is so striking
Maybe its the language or culture but the way this writer writes about Arafat is quite amazing. It's some how like a poem. The words chosen are very simple but yet when pieced together, it came out very beautiful. It's a very short paragraph but it just basically sums up the entire senario in Palastine
'THERE comes a moment when every man's obituary appears on his face. Suddenly the hero of a hundred battles is suffused with a childlike helplessness, and his hand clutches for support from a friend, unsure whether this will be his last gesture. It is a moment of truth beyond denial.
It is the face of a man who has seen the approach of the angel of death and knows that there can be no answers, no negotiation, nothing but submission to... God.
It was such a face that Yasser Arafat presented to the television cameras that glimpsed him on Oct 28. Etched on that face was the realisation that, while God might yet grant Arafat longer life, his days as commander-in-chief of the Palestinian resistance were over.'
- M.J. AKBAR, Pakistani journalist, in an article on Mr Arafat
Juventus
Must say that Capello has done an excellent. He did the right thing by benching Appiah, Montero and Ferrera. The still admire the latter two but have to admit that they were the cause of Juve's failure last season. Appiah, don't need to say, he's just basically fucked up. Capello did also the relatively unthinkable and that is to bench del Piero when he was off form and I think that really contributed a lot to the in form del Piero. The press once said that maybe del Piero had peaked at such a young age that he probably can never reach those heights again. I might have to agree with them to a certain extend.
But sometimes I think that he too is under tremendous stress. Since a young age, he was expected to carry the hopes of a nation upon his shoulders. Of course, time and again he failed so much so that he was not given the no. 10 jersey. If del Piero was to retire today, he would be remembered as a player that never really lived up to his fullest potential and a player who choked in the big scene. I really don't know if he can actually live up to the kind of expectation that is expected of him, but I sure hope that he can cos despite what they say about him, he's still a talent to me. A player who is above the rest.
Ok, back to Juve as a team. A reason for their success so far in definitely their defence. The combination of Cannavaro, Thuram, Zambrotta and Zebina is sure amazing. With the skills of Buffon, no wonder they are noe playing with renewed confidence. 15 games played and 11 clean sheets. That sure says a lot. The combination of the than Parma defence is showing the world what defending is.
Most importantly for Juve is that they are playing as a team. Never have I seen them play so much as a team. The defend and attack as a team and that I believe is what makes the difference from them and the rest. Tonight they play Reggina. Let's see if they can take full points from Reggina. The old Juve will choke and squander points cos of over confidence. Let's see what happens tonight.
Heart break
The news that Hewitt and Clijsters was a total surprise. They were supposed to get married and be the next golden couple of tennis. Though I respect their decision to not say why they broke up, I can't help but wonder the reason. I mean they always seem so happy, cheering each other on etc. But look what happened.
I'm really curious how the crowd will react if Clijsters can ever recover and play the upcoming Australian Open. She was long considered the nation's adopted daughter cos of Hewitt. So what will happen now? Will the crowd boo her or cheer her on as still one of their own? I sure hope they'll cheer her on.
The news also that Philippoussis broke up with Delta Goodrem over apparently Paris Hilton was also quite surprising. What got into Philippoussis head? Goodrem is so much nicer than Paris Hilton. One is truly refined and talent but the other by right should be refined and talented is not. Paris Hilton is just not a Delta Goodrem. Probably that's why love is blind.
What happens in the following week? Paris Hilton was reported to be with Andy Roddick and that she was not the cause of Philippoussis and Goodrem. Some call girl was supposed to be the cause. Think Philippoussis is going nuts. He rather have a girl who believes in variety.
A time to think
Been doing a lot of thinking and soul searching since the last couple weeks of school or so. Was thinking what I've become in such a short span of time. Guess the Katie Melua song did help me think too. I really love her vocals and the first part of the song,
How can i think i'm standing strong?
Yet feel the air beneath my feet
How can happiness feel so wrong?
How can misery feel so sweet?
How can you let me watch you sleep?
Then break my dreams the way you do
How can i have got in so deep?
Why did i fall in love with you?
This is the closest thing to crazy i have ever been
Feeling twenty-two acting seventeen
This is the nearest thing to crazy i have ever known
I was never crazy, on my own and now i know
That there's a link between the two
Being close to craziness, and being close to you
How can you make me fall apart?
Then break my fall with loving light
It's so easy to break a heart
It's so easy to close you eyes
How can you treat me like a child?
Yet like a child i yearn for you
How can anyone feel so wild?
How can anyone feel so blue?
This is the closest thing to crazy i have ever been
Feeling twenty-two acting seventeen
This is the nearest thing to crazy i have ever known
I was never crazy, on my own and now i know
That there's a link between the two
Being close to craziness, and being close to you
And being close to you-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh
And being close to you
The song is just to soothing. Thanks to Elwin for intro-ing me to the song. Used to enjoy moments of insanity but now, thin am increasingly becoming too sane. Sometimes moments of insanity really helps to keep the sanity in one. Guess the last time I had a moment of insanity, I kind of regreted it so that's why now really think twice before doing anything.
How many of us have actually had something happen to us or someone entering our lives, be it a stranger or a friend and totally sweep us off our feet. These people just come in and make us see the world in a different light. To show us that sanity can be found in insanity, hope can be found in hopelessness.
Just like darkness isn't it? There's no such thing as darkness but just the absence of light. Am I making sense? No? Maybe its just my mind now, have too much thought floating in my mind. There are things that maybe I should just leave behind and move on but I still insist on clinging on to it, because I still see hope in it. Maybe I'm just seeing things, maybe there's already no hope and that I'm just lying to myself and hope to see hope.
I must learn to put it down. I know I should but I know I probably won't. Why? Maybe that's just me. Hoping against hope.
he spoke at 2:56 pm
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