Sunday, June 29, 2003
Haha. Yup. Its gonna be about your bbq! Had a great time though puked in the end of the night. So ironic that I was telling Jop that mixing hard and soft alcohol is not a good idea and in the end puked! Sheesh. Well, Elwin's real good at marinating chicken. Did a fantastic job with the wings and we all finished it up. No wastage. Played mahjong for a while and got to apologise to Joanne for making her come down and she did not get to play much mahjong.
he spoke at 12:24 pm
Friday, June 27, 2003
Back from Orientation. Was not too bad the classes, quite shy but nice people. Hope they remain that way. Paired up with Sherman and found out too that I'll be in the exact same IS class for both modules! Yea! The most interesting 2 people we saw was a guy who looked like a Bollywood actor and a girl who looked so Jap!! The meoment we saw her we were stunned, her dressing was so Jap; earrings and all! Haha. You guys should had seen her. Bet Melly, Joy and Yah Yah will agree man. The class that we took was Kon's class and along with T10 OGLs, he kept suaning us and insisted in front of the class that we were there to get to know the girls and all. Haha. The works shown was very good. Finally got to saw the horror show made by some FSV people. Elwin was telling me so much about it and yes, it was very good. Scary no dobt but it helps when you know who acted the female ghost. That group was very impressive, both their 1st and 2nd productions were screened. Went to Clementi after that with Elwin, Ting Li, Andy, Tian, Bobby and Arty (think got his name right) to makan at the supposedly famous chicken cutlet stall; a stall recommended by Yummy King. Did not eat as my brunch was still very much in me. Joseph came and he, Elwin and I went to play acarde. More like they played and watch. Was not very much in a mood to play and was quite fascinated by watching them play Gandam. Played only 1 game of Marvel Vs Capcom 2. Could not figure out how to use some of the characters and how to change player thus lost in the 3rd or 4th round.O yah, how could I forget to mention how happy I was to see X-Men Vs Street Fighter at the arcade at Whitesands! That was my favourite game when I was in JC and my best game. Played it twice yesterday and found out that I could no longer use Wolverine the way I used it than. Used to be my best character, a character that I only needed more or less to complete the game but now, totally suck at it. Completed the game using Ryu and Akuma but lost midway using Cyclops and Wolverine, but any how, enjoyed playing it again.
Again thanks to Melly for making our t shirts look so nice!
he spoke at 5:54 pm
Thursday, June 26, 2003
Went to Ubin today with Elwin, Joseph and Daffy. Had a solid time cycling and enjoying nature, all these despite taking wrong turns and cycling in the rain up and down slopes. Our butts no doubr hurt big time now. Was quite disappointed that the tide was relatively high despite it being low tide at Chek Jawa. Colud not walk out to see the marine life. Surprisingly the place was thronging with people and families. Must say that the ugly side of Singaporeans prevailed there. There was at least one family happily catching some of the tiny crabs I think with their children there. What kind of message are they putting forward to their kids? That is alright to interfere with nature?? Empty shells are fine but picking the wildlife is a definite no no. When will these people ever learn?
he spoke at 10:06 pm
Hi Laurina, nice of you to drop by. Well, guess its a number of factors and incidents that happened. I was very disappointed to see what was happening in so many church groups in and out of Singapore. Some people are in church groups not to serve Him but to look good or to make themselves so high and mighty. They claim they are doing it for God but their actions just do not much their preaching. The feud between Catholics and Protestants was also getting on my nerve. Its is so ironic to see people whom worship the same God fight or try to pry other believers from to their church. The feeling of being stopped by a Protestant to talk about God is ok, but when the person downplays your church to glorify his is way too much. How much does his Christ defer from mine? Some will actually tell you that they used to go a Catholic church, but now they go to the church they are now because their wishes are granted there. Seems like people go to churches not to spend time with Him but to make use of Him. There are actually some churches that downplay Roman Catholism and in that sense inevitably creating hatered towards us. Why can these people not see that the God that they worship is excatly the same God?? The notion of spreading the word in most people I know seems blurred. It seems that you spread the word by having the person join your church or into the religion. Should it not be that we let the person know about Him and regardless which church he joins, or even what religion he embraces is up to the person. Should the crux not be that the person knows about Him? I know of churches here that make their goers pray in tongue. According to the bible, praying in tongues is a gift, o how ca you expect all your goers to pray in tongues? If you do that, there will bound to be people who fake it to gain acceptance. How ironic that will be. There are also churches who's website seem to focus more on the pastor. A quick glance and you'll probably think that the pastor is the person being worshipped. You cannot detect the Him in it.
I've also been battled once about the question, "What if one day you wake up and realise that Christianity is nothing but a lie?" I told myself at the beginning that even if its false, by leading a Christ way of life, I've no doubt lead a better life. Soon that answer could no longer satisfy me. I began to think that even if its fake, we'll never know simply because the consequences will be too drastic. My best bet will be the end of humanity. I began to wonder about it. If I want to create a brand new religion what will I do? Probably exactly like Christianity. Have the God be lifted up body and soul. Have things like flood etc and almost all traces of the beginning of the religion will be wiped out. There is almost no concrete proof that Christ existed. Why is religion called faith or believe if what the bible or holy books say are true? Things like how religion have changed over the years. If it is really the word or law of God, how come the things people were stoned for than can happen today without any of the than punishment? All religion have changed to suit the modern day man. We begin to have break off factions simply because people do not like the actual teachings. How can this be possible?? How in the world can religion change to suit man?? Look at how some people use religion to their advantage. I've read books that use only a part of the bible to support their claims. But if you read further, you'll know that the person had delibrately left out parts to his advantage. Not only the laymen are doing this. Look at terrorism. They claim its for their religion but all religions preach peace and not killings. How to justify? Use the part that suits you and say that its from the holy book. Its things like that that make me have doubts in my faith. But one thing for sure is that I know that He exist. How can certain miracles happen? My only answer is that because He is there. Despite my doubts and all, there is something that I cannot explain; how come even though I doubt His existence, I still firmly believe in Him and that He has been my greatest source of solace and inspiration? And that I still yearn so much for Him and trust Him so much. Yes it may sound ironic and weird but that is the exact battle; mind against heart. On the lighter side is I've always been wondering if we believe in science, that man originated from apes, than are Adam and Eve apes?
he spoke at 9:02 pm
Wednesday, June 25, 2003
Many thanks to Melly for helping Yah Yah, Joy and I with our t shirt design. Thanks Melly!
Had quite a few people talking about my hair today. Yes, its short and no the barber did not make a mistake. I opted for this short hair and I am really very very happy with it. Its very cooling and I really like it. Even the saleslady at a Vinci too. Quite surprised that she actually remembered my previous hair cut and kept saying that its very cute. She even thought that I just came back from ICT. Haha. Nevermind. I really like it! My hair cut I mean.
he spoke at 10:32 pm
Tuesday, June 24, 2003
A sincere apology to those people I have hurt or disappointed out there. I realised that during this holidays especially I had offended some people some way or other. Be it what I had said, done or had not done. I know there are some of you that are also wondering what happened to me. Those who closer to me will also wonder why I have changed to much, supposedly for the worse over the past one and a half years or so. I really do not know why too. Been a very challenging time for me since that time. Spiritually too, I've seemed to have kind of neglected Him. No longer do I faithfully touch the bible. Used to do it daily but it has been around a year since I last picked it up to read. Yes, I do go to church on Sundays and days of obligations but it is never the same. At times, physically I was there but not in mind and nightly prayers seem shorter and shorter. Dust not only settled on my bible but also in my heart. My patience and tolerance is thinning, and my pride has taken over. I've been wanted to apologise to some people for things that I've done that have hurt them but never had to courage to d so. I did not want lower myself and have always told Him that I'll forgive them if they hold out the olive branch first. They had but I turned a blind eye and continued to be the bastard. Now those people are so distant and I really regretted not forgiving them. It seems that even if I make the move now, i'll just be too late. Now, we are like strangers. Even is we see each other, we just walk past without even greeting. Even if we do, it's so fake. Yes, that person had hurt me very badly once but I've always told myself and others to be forgiving. How ironic?? The person who is telling others how to live is unable to so exactly what he preaches. Even till today, I still ask some of my friends to go to church. See the irony? A man of little faith like me is asking people to go to church. Who am I to advice them when my life is so screwed. I left Charismatic last year? Reason I gave? I wanted to concentrate on my studies. The truth? I was so low on my own faith and felt that I am totally unworthy to be laying hands and praying over for others. I had began to doubt my God given gifts and was so fearful that one day people will just say that I'm a fake. If I cannot even trust Him fully, how can people trust me with their prayers? If I had continued, would I just not be cheating Him, them and myself? That's why I left. To once again search for Him. I've told myself that if I can find Him again, my faith will be very strong. My greatest fear is that I'll abandon Him fully and no longer search for Him. To those whom I've let down, I'm so ver sorry and hope that you all can forgive me for hurt I've caused all of you. I hope that one day, I'll have that courage to go up to you and apologise.
he spoke at 10:39 pm
Anyone interested in playing beach volleyball this Sunday?
he spoke at 11:29 am
Monday, June 23, 2003
Went to school for the briefing. Was quite surprised to see Pearlyn there, cos the contest is tonight. Anyway, the lecturers could not get the air con turned on for the 1st 10 minutes or so and I was like perspiring big time. Ask Melly and Yah Yah about it, they can concur. Haha. The briefing was damn fast, about half and hour at most.
Went down to town to watch Far From Heaven with Joy and Mark. On the way Joy kept telling me to be patient cos I suddenly kept saying I wanted to go off and asked her to confirm with Mark if he's going. Haha. Don't know why but not very myself today. After we bought the tickets, Joy thought that I took the tickets vice versa and the ticket lady had to call us back to take it. Haha. Went to play pool with Joy while waiting for Mark. Had quite a torrid game, fouled and lost 2 frames. My balls just wll not go in and if they did, it'll be the wrong pocket. Twice I cued the ball and 2 balls went in but in the wrong hole!! Man. Better still was that I actually miscued so badly that the cue ball jumped off the table. Not my day.
After the show, went to meet my parents for makan. While walking to the car, we passed Lucky Plaza. I slowed down but did not stop to check something in my pocket and I heard this irritated voice behind me that immediately commented something like "Excuse me, can you just walk properly??" I immediately apologised and side stepped and saw that the person who commented was Natasha. She was with her boyfriend. Was quite stunned and irritated already by the comment, but knowing that it came from a MCMer that you do not really like was like worse! Really bad day cos after that went to a golf shop at Paragon cos my dad wanted to get something from there. The salesmen would rather chat there and not entertain us. The situation chnaged when a Jap man entered. 1 salesman immediately tended to him. Bastards! To sum, not the best of days I had.
Only happy thing is that I managed to get AK's Last Christmas performance. Yea!
he spoke at 10:46 pm
Going to school soon but just decided to blog. Haha. So fast, hols is coming to an end in less than 2 weeks. O well, might as well, afterall, at least for me cos I've not been doing much or anything constuctive. More or less been wasting my time. Nevermind, its going to be over soon. Ok, think better run, otherwise will be late.
Good luck to Pearlyn and her boyfriend, hope they'll win the contest!
he spoke at 1:04 pm